Chorus:
I can't chill tonight, please don't get mad at me hommie
'cause the sinful sorrow of my life got a hold of me.
I need to stay at home and be alone to do some mourning;
check the condition of my soul that I've been ignoring.
Don't take it personal 'cause I'm just trying to be real;
rather than suffer keeping things unrevealed and concealed
as I deny, try, get high, or struggle to cry some tears;
I need God crush and rebuild my soul up in here ‘cause I…

Deny the fact the biggest problem is my self;
deny my anger inside and blaming someone else;
deny that I'm filled with pride like virus in cells ;
deny how far I wonder from God as my sin excels;
deny that I'm wicked by nature as I really am even
deny God like Pharisees faking it as I pretend;
deny that I'm bankrupt in sprit with nothing to bring,
but then I move on to trying to fix my broken condition, as I…
Try like monastics bounded by a religion;
try to make drastic changes by moral living;
try to then mask it saying all the right things and
try to be like the heads in my congregation;
try in my own power to make a change of my direction;
try to appear godly as if I don't need any correction;
try coming to God in prayer yet feeling disconnection
as a conviction hits me, I'm not even close to perfection, so…

Chorus:
I can't chill tonight, please don't get mad at me hommie
'cause the sinful sorrow of my life got a hold of me.
I need to stay at home and be alone to do some mourning;
check the condition of my soul that I've been ignoring.
Don't take it personal 'cause I'm just trying to be real;
rather than suffer keeping things unrevealed and concealed
as I deny, try, get high, or struggle to cry some tears;
I need God crush and rebuild my soul up in here ‘cause I…

Get high opposing to who I should truly to be;
get high by sinning with lust physically and mentally;
get high through entertainment escaping the reality;
get high by rapping it away on instrumental beats;
get high presenting myself greater than I am;
get high thinking I stand on land, yet sinking in the sand;
get high through phony piety, yet fail to understand
that on the other hand I'm so depraved I need You again, so I…
Cry after breaking Your laws but no tears come out;
cry that I became callus to You not more devout;
cry with no hope left inside and overwhelmed by doubt;
cry and shout God knowing He's the only route, so I…
Cry like the prodigal admitting my condition;
cry returning home with hopes for an undeserved admission;
cry not just to focus on myself and my sinning,
but focusing on God the only One Who can forgive me, because



That’s when the Spirit comes and clears up my blurry vision, as I…
react to my sin surely in the face of God Who's holy
Who can just simply destroy me when I'm in front of His glory.
But He's been patient with me while exposing my transgressions, while I…
come to Him fully broken, and in my tears I am soaking
what in me is evoking a right attitude of mourning.
That's when He shows me things far too long I've been ignoring, and then…
through scriptural revelations displaying my imperfections,
leading me to repentance, reassuring my salvation.
And daily gives me grace with His mercies ever flowing, that's when…
I am comforted fully knowing that all of my folly
is forgiven absolutely, and blessed I am truly.

Rejoice! that you are grieved into repenting.
For godly grief produces a repentance that leads to salvation without regret, whereas worldly grief produces death. (2 Cor 7:9-10)
Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted. (Mat 5:4)